I started to feel a little bit uncontrollable

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I gathered with many close friends first.
Then one time, just that one time,
I play with a boy who looks very clean.
When I saw him, I had the urge to have sex with him.
He also showed that he was willing.
We just went with the flow and had a date.
This is the first time I have sex with a stranger behind my husband.
How to describe it?
I feel very excited and have a special feeling.
At that time, I started to feel a little bit uncontrollable.
But I think anyone would be addicted to that feeling.
It's just a secret thrill.
In the beginning, it was just random hookups, but then I started hooking up with purpose.
Now I have gathered boys from the twelve zodiac signs,
Next I plan to collect all twelve Chinese zodiac signs.
Question: Don't you think you're sorry for your husband by doing this? Because after all, it is an affair within marriage.
But the problem is that my husband doesn't know either.
And I won't let him know these things.
I think that's what I want.
Moreover, my husband is a businessman and is usually very busy.
He usually doesn't have time to spend with me, and then he doesn't know what I do.
Question: So you don't feel guilty when you do these things?
I don't know how to describe this feeling.
However, I think sex addiction is just like eating for me.
Then everyone eats, and some people eat more if they have a good appetite;
Some people have a bad appetite and eat less.
In fact, I also know that if I say this, some people will criticize me.
But actually I think people with a bad appetite,
there is no need to blame people with good appetites.
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